Sunday, December 19, 2010
Music is not just playing the right chords with the right song, or just reading the score and playing of it. No. Music is a way of life. Music is what revolves. I just want to share or let people see what music is in a different light. It's about how you feel, what makes you sad, happy, angry, remorse. All that feelings can be channeled through music.
I'm fortunate enough to grow up in a music family. To have a father that plays the guitar and sing and to have a brother who is able to compose songs, plays the piano and sing. Me? I can't compose and I'm very sure I can't sing like my dad and my brother do. But one thing that I know I have. I have a soulful taste of music which God gave me, and all of it should go to God. What was just a hobby, became a passion. I never thought of loving music, I never even thought of playing an instrument. But here I am, a bass guitar strapped over my shoulder. Words cannot explain the immense joy in playing the bass guitar. For that period of time that I play the bass, all my cares and worries are not so important to me anymore, and I feel that this is my worship to you, Lord.
Lord, I am a nobody. Most of the time I feel that I am the wrong person to lead the teens. The wrong person to lead worship, the wrong person to be of anybody's example. It's tough. I do not what is happening. I tried so hard to be an outstanding person, but only to fail. The guys in church do not deserve for me to rant or give a black face to them, so hence I show the fun side and never show the other side of Jared. Lord, I pray that you give me strength, take my life and use it Lord. And if you ever read this, I truly and deeply love you with all my heart. It's really difficult to see you and I can't do anything but to see you from afar. Always know that I always pray for you, and love you.
7:03 PM, & i live by faith and not by sight for you
Monday, January 04, 2010
Never felt this way before, never once did. Never would I imagined that I will ever feel it, but I did. No words could ever explained how good it felt, it may seem nothing much but to me it did. I wished it would never end, but it has to, eventually.
Will it happen? Will you see it? Or you already did. Will you know? Or have you. Will I get that chance to not only swipe you off your feet but to catch you when you fall? Will I get that chance to hold you in my arms and never let you go? Will I get that chance to wipe the tears on your face and tell you that everything will be alright?
7:07 PM, & i live by faith and not by sight for you
Friday, January 01, 2010
As the new year beckons, many will fill up their reflection cards or plainy just reflect on what happen during the year.
Well, this year has been rather a learning experience. I have experience the lows, yet with that I experienced how much God loves me. I learn that the more in-tune you are with God, the more He's gonna shape your life. I believe that this experience taught me to depend on God, and believe that He knows what is best for you.
Im excited what the year will bring, Im excited what God has in store.
Im happy how my year ended off, if I could ever repeat it again, I would. I will anticipate for that time to come, and you will know that whatever I did has a reason.peaceout guys.
5:19 PM, & i live by faith and not by sight for you
Sunday, November 15, 2009
I guess the best way is always to depend on God for things in your life. I'm not afraid to admit that its hard sometimes to live life. Hey, who says it's ever easy. I'm blessed with a job, blessed with wonderful parents, blessed to have GTC as my church and blessed to have a life to live for a purpose. Although I do not know what that purpose is, but I'm sure its something great.
I'm not the best, never will be one. But what I do know is that I will never stop giving what I can give. I know I'm not ready. But I am preparing myself, to give the very best. Will be praying, thinking and watching, so that of all the things I've said will come to past.
All of this I leave it in God's hands
9:35 PM, & i live by faith and not by sight for you
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
I still wonder those anybody read this blog.
Been thinking alot lately, due to the fact of what my current situation is. I do wonder what a relationship is. I do wonder what is takes to make a relationship work. I do question God, what must I do to make the person stay with me. To me, I believe that if you love a person with all your heart and give your best, she will be yours no matter what. I believe that if you are committed to a relationship, it will be honoured. I believe that if you assured the person you love that you will be there no matter what, he/she will be touched and be loved and be thankful that there is someone there who cares and love them.
Well, I will continue to be the person I am even though I am hurt all the time. Maybe due to my stubborn nature or maybe thats my character. To love my girlfriend with all of my heart. That's me, that's Jared Chan. Yes I am such a fool. Because I believe there is someone for everyone.
Will someone accept the person I am? I really don't know. But thoughts will always go to my head telling me that maybe I'm not good enough that's why my relationships failed. No one will accept Jared Chan. No one will want to be with me. Well, that's just my thoughts. I do wonder who reads this. Hai, I know I'm not good enough for you, but you don't have to do this way.
10:35 PM, & i live by faith and not by sight for you
Friday, August 29, 2008
a look from a far, a space in between. imagination fills the mind, deep thoughts running through. a sense of hope arise, but yet unsure. can it happen or can it not, that's the question. days passed as quick as it came, inside never change. a smile, a tear, touches the heart. a simple look, a simple glance, all it needs.
air was cleared, dust was settled. an unexpected outcome, an expected response. morale was low, but head up high. time passed, all was normal. a ring and a buzz, an unexpected outcome, an expected response. a gift, a blessing. silent was made, waiting will be. time has to be right, time has to be perfect. cannot lose, cannot let go. be here always, forevermore
7:29 PM, & i live by faith and not by sight for you
Saturday, August 23, 2008
I must say that I am really blessed. I am really fortunate. Never take what God has given me for granted. Yes we will have our ups and downs. But its the downs that make us appreciate the ups. I am blessed thats all I can say.
10:26 PM, & i live by faith and not by sight for you
