Sunday, December 19, 2010
Music is not just playing the right chords with the right song, or just reading the score and playing of it. No. Music is a way of life. Music is what revolves. I just want to share or let people see what music is in a different light. It's about how you feel, what makes you sad, happy, angry, remorse. All that feelings can be channeled through music.
I'm fortunate enough to grow up in a music family. To have a father that plays the guitar and sing and to have a brother who is able to compose songs, plays the piano and sing. Me? I can't compose and I'm very sure I can't sing like my dad and my brother do. But one thing that I know I have. I have a soulful taste of music which God gave me, and all of it should go to God. What was just a hobby, became a passion. I never thought of loving music, I never even thought of playing an instrument. But here I am, a bass guitar strapped over my shoulder. Words cannot explain the immense joy in playing the bass guitar. For that period of time that I play the bass, all my cares and worries are not so important to me anymore, and I feel that this is my worship to you, Lord.
Lord, I am a nobody. Most of the time I feel that I am the wrong person to lead the teens. The wrong person to lead worship, the wrong person to be of anybody's example. It's tough. I do not what is happening. I tried so hard to be an outstanding person, but only to fail. The guys in church do not deserve for me to rant or give a black face to them, so hence I show the fun side and never show the other side of Jared. Lord, I pray that you give me strength, take my life and use it Lord. And if you ever read this, I truly and deeply love you with all my heart. It's really difficult to see you and I can't do anything but to see you from afar. Always know that I always pray for you, and love you.
7:03 PM, & i live by faith and not by sight for you
